I have always wondered while growing up what it would be like going to church regularly every sundays with my family like most families i knew back then,but i guess for a long time i wondered in vain without getting any answers. I was born into an anglican family and i can only remember as a child about 3-4 year old,my parents took us to st peter's anglican church.
In as much as i was very young then i knew that was the appropriate thing to do at least every sunday morning even though i didn't understand why and the relevance then,but i was happy we did. Few years down d line i realised that we rarely go to church now on sundays on like we used to and finally we stopped altogether.
it didn't bother me neither did i ask questions why we stopped because like i said earlier i didn't even understand why we went to church,i felt we were just following religious beliefs. Gradually becoming a teenager,that was when i started wondering why we don't go to church but rather prefer staying at home sundays doing nothing.
i remember seeing my dad always reading the Bible and i asked him why he reads it but don't go to church,he told me that church is in the heart and not by going someplace every sunday. At that time i reasoned with him and kind of believed that,and even tried doing the same,but in my heart i still had doubts and believed that there is more to God that can only be taught in church .
Like they say,a man's heart will always be pondering looking for something to be filled with and if not filled with God then the devil will step in and that was the place we found ourselves. My mum had this friend,i remember she visiting one day and told my mum about a woman who was a spiritualist involved with the water spirit and communicates with them.
she took my mum to see this woman and before we know it all members of the family was involved in this. Because i was very young then and as such the messages gotten from this spiritualist was basically for my elder siblings and parents which we believed, because to us at that time things were going well and we taught it was their doing.
Little did we know that there's a price to pay. Gradually we started drifting away from our religious beliefs and focused on doing the things the woman seeks until things started falling apart.
Quarelling and fighting was the order of most days in my house that my neighbours and friends started asking me questions why we don't go to church,they advised me that even if my parents don't want to go to church we the children should. At that point i made up my mind to start going to church.
Since all my friends are either catholics or anglicans,i decided to start going to a catholic church with my closest friend. i went few times and didn't understand all the doctrines that one has to abide to,making matters worse,i always find myself sleeping at service all the time.
i decided to go with another friend to an anglican church,but the situation was the same. It was all about abiding to laws and there were so many restrictions that i didn't like it and eventually i stopped because it became so difficult for me to serve this God that they were talking about.
Later time passed,i got an admission into school in Abuja. i got there with the same attitude and intention of not wanting to go to church and my roomates noticed this.
lots of times they invited me to church(living faith) but i gave excuses. one day i decided to go, i guess they have been interceding on my behalf.
on getting there i started hearing words about God that i have never heard before and for the first time i didn't sleep,rather there was this great hunger in me to hear more. Faith came that immediately the altar call was made i came out to my surprise and i gave my life to christ,received the holy spirit and later baptised.
After that sunday i noticed that my life became different,now thinking more about christ and with the help of my roommate who started teaching me to pray and study the word my life became better that i excelled in my academics more than my peers in class. But there was a problem,each time i do something i find myself been over conscious in order not to sin because i felt that now i have to live a holy life.
Also i was in the habit of judging people who are not born-again or are,but i feel their lives are not in sync with the new creation. Not until i came to Christ Embassy church,i started hearing another aspect of the word concerning the christian life that i have never heard even as a born again.
i remember listening to the messages on understanding righteousness and the concept of sin by pastor Chris,this changed my mindset and helped me get rid of the questions of sin and guilt as i began to see myself as the righteousness of God and not trying to be, and that the Holy spirit that i have received is helping me live the life. Now most of the questions i had back then has been answered though it took a long time but Jesus brought salvation to me,and not only that all members of my family are now born-again and attends CEC regularly and are also very committed.
With all the teachings from my pastors and personal walk with Christ i have come to know that the gospel is a message of love,hope,faith and peace and not of condemnation,obeying doctrines and judgements. this is what i preach and tell others today.
This one thing that i have found,i will never let it go now and forever and i will always be greatful to Christ who has raptured me with his love. i want to say i love u Jesus and forever you will be my lord and saviour.