Hi my name is Eneyi Nabena and this is my story. The Year 2005 was a very special year for me-twas the year I really came to know God.
I was 15 at the time and Id been in christembassy all my life. Id went to childrens church,had a mum who was heavily involved in the Ministry work and yet I wasnt really commited to the things of God.
Sure Id said the salvation prayer many times only to return to my old ways within a matter of days-I was too carried away with carnal things and thoughts- desire to be held in high regard by man and women-especially women. The sad thing was the Church was the place I wanted this carnal desires to be answered-I would learn scriptures not for myself but just to impress my peers on my knowledge whilst my attitude would contradict the very words I spoke.
I felt my self to be superior to my brethren because of my knowledge. Interestingly,though this brethren who didnt know as much as I did,some of which just newly came to the ministry were more commited to the Gopel than I was and their lives were better than mine.
I remember a lovely sister who jioned the ministry within 2 years and became a Royalties PCU leader. Id been in the ministry all my life and I was just a member yet I maintained a sense of superiority to all becasue of my "Knowledge" and continued to pursue my carnal desires.
I was going nowhere fast and I didnt know it. But God was watching.
He always does. June/July 2005 marked the return of Pastor Chris to Nigeria after extended work in Southafrica.
Pastor really began to preach a message on what he called the study of the book of Phillipians which addressed the Mixed multitude and the Prideful in the Church. All the while Pastor was preaching on it I never really connected myself to the message in fact I had never connected myself to any message in my life.
UNTIL the last day of the teaching programme. Pastor really compounded on the dangers of being Prideful and on how God resisted the Pride-how pride destroys.
And then he gave a call saying "Some of you here the Holyspirit has begun to lay a conviction in your hearts that you are one of the People Ive been speakin about. As that conviction comes to you come out to the altar" As he spoke those words the Holyghost conviction hit me hard -I suddenly realized I was proud!I was one of them!As I resisted the Holyspirit showed me my life in slowv motion all the prideful actions Id taken-I was forced to confront the horrible truth-I was one of those God resisted! Many had begun to make their way to the front now whilst I was struggling with the Spirit.
I asked what would happen if I went to the altar and what would happen if anyone saw me-but the Holyghost kept pressing me. Finally I looked up and saw a PCU leader I knew going to the altar in full view of her brethren without shame ready to repent of her sin.
That shocked me to the core and I asked myself"what am i doing" and I stood up to repent. Pastor prayed for us and after which there was somtething different in me.
Peace. Pure unaldutereated Peace.
After the Prayers I did what I should have done all the while i was in the ministry-I humbled myself and got commited to my Pcf work and It was glorious. I suddenly belonged-I had a pupose! But God wasnt done with me yet.
I had been ashamed that it had taken so long for God to convince me to go to the altar during the fateful service so I promised God "if you need me to go to the altar on anyother occasion I wont hesitate". Well God cashed in on that promise the very next sunday-On that sunday a call to recieve the Holyghost was made and the conviction came to me to go to the altar.
I was about to resist the call thinking I wasnt worthy but the moment the thought crossed my mind the Preacher said "You dont have to be the the most holy person on the planet to recieve the HolyGhost-The only qualificcation is to be Born again". When I heard that the Holyspirit told me I had no excuse and that I had promised not to hesistate again and so I didnt-I went to the front and recieved the most wonderful gift of al- the Gift of the HolyGhost.
To say I changed after that is an Undersestmation-Within 2 days I was preaching the gospel on bus evangelisms,school evangelisms consuming ministery materials and I had never ever been so happy!I didnt know human beings could be so Joyful but thats our nature our calling. Sunday services became the highlights of my week the Word became alive to me.